About ten years ago is when it all began, at least from what I can remember. When I turned thirteen, everything changed. I wasn’t the same carefree, loving kid anymore. It felt like I was walking through a long, dark tunnel with no clear way out. I felt like I wanted to cry, but I couldn’t. It was as if my emotions had shut down. I felt numb. That’s when I began hurting myself. I thought that if I could create physical pain, I might be able to feel something again. For a whil